Thursday, November 1, 2012

Unicorns and Rainbows

I would like to share my thoughts. On this blog.
I have wanted to do so for some time now. Life has changed dramatically for our little family, and yet it seems like nothing has changed at all. It’s so strange. 

I am hesitant to share for many reasons. Mostly because my feelings are considerably close to my heart. And confessing them makes them both REAL and TANGIBLE.  Which is frightening because I live in Denial-land (much like Disneyland).
And I try to be a relatively hopeful person. I’m not perfect (hard to believe, I am sure), but I enjoy seeing things through rose-colored glasses. Mostly my thoughts are filled with love and joy and rainbows and butterflies and unicorns.


But sometimes my thoughts are not always so pretty or happy. Sometimes they are sad. Or troubled. I am trying to be ok with that.

I’m trying not feel guilty for feeling feelings (other than happy) sometimes.

Quite an undertaking for me: It’s ok to feel your feelings!!! No Guilt Required.

So I guess my point to all of this is I am going to try to update my blog more often.  Even though it seems scary to me. Because I would like to not bottle everything in that is happening in my life. It is easy for me to feel isolated sometimes and I am not a fan o’ that. I will definitely over share (I do this!!!) and hopefully they are all nice feelings I have, but you never know…either way hopefully you won’t judge me too harshly. But it’s ok if you do.  

Get ready for caring and sharing.

It’s going to be awesome.

8 comments:

Jan said...

Can't wait! (love you, my friend!)

Melanie said...

You are unicorns and rainbows to me!! i also Just learned this! I always felt bad when I didn't have "happy" feelings. Glad I am not the only one just learning this ;).

I love your face, oh, and those little kiddos of yours too!

Unknown said...

woot!

hoLLy said...

i have a lot of unhappy feelings lately. mixed with a whole lot of happy. we're human. and maybe i'm bipolar. i don't know :) can't wait to hear more from ya! miss you and your posts!

Hayley said...

kristi, i love you - i've always missed you since your blogging went quiet. it is ok to not always be perfectly happy, life is tough and sometimes it needs a little seriousness. don't feel guilty, don't beat yourself up. just know you are loved and that you're doing a great job at what you do.

Maren and Dustin said...

Glad to see you back on the blog. :) Love hearing from you.

capturingtheride said...

I am happy to have found your blog. I have been thinking I need to quit thinking about how I am still not settled in from moving and get on with it ;) Would love to hang out sometime and get to know you and yours. My daughter Hazel needs to make a friend and it seems to me she and Avery would get along very well ;)

House of Payne said...

Hooray Hoorah! You're back! Bless your little heart. You are such a talented writer (is that the right word?) and most importantly, the most amazing mother! Love you and your adorable family!